I am just putting in a brief note here.
After some Deep Thinking and pondering and contemplating and freaking out…I have decided to wait on being a foster mom.
I am honestly just not ready. I think I started feeling as if I HAD to be some kind of a mom. All my friends are mom’s. My own mother was a parent by the age I am now.
But that can’t be the reason to do this.
And I am sad. I am sad to let go of the childs room that I had ready for them. I am sad to let go of the idea of being a mom.
But I am just not ready.
And I would rather figure that out prior to having a placement, rather than after.
Thank you to everyone for their kind words and advice. I will be back if things should change!!